Reflections

My Personality

went to school today. Came home all wet and soaked. But i did managed to change my schedule so i only go to school 3 days a week. But full of 8hr classes. At least this will save me on transportation money. Yes Animation cost a fortune. NEW YEAR RESOLUTION TIME! 1) Don’t fail school. 2) Time to be a money conservative. 3) Lose weight. (been getting fat) 4) Staying fit and stop eating out so much.

Can’t think of anymore. Will try to add more if i think of anything later. Must remind myself to pick up school programs. Maybe i shall attempt to keep a day to day journal about boring school.

best anime of 2006:
1) Honey and Clover
2) Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuuutsu (The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya)
3) Code Geass (even tho its not over yet), Major is close
best female:
1) Suzumiya Haruhi
2) Yuuko
3) Haruhi from Ouran
best male:
1) “Kyon”
2) Lelouch de Britannia
3) Light
Looking forward to:Nodame and Major season 3

Wow! Its like i’ve forgotten about this place. Well since I’m lending space out to my Boyfriend i might as well make use of space i paid for but have long forgotten about. You should check out my boyfriend’s fansite of our local heros the Sedin twins from the Vancouver Canucks. I’m very proud of his site since he has put alot of effort and time into it. Just so you know he’s a total web site newbie like myself. That doesn’t stop him from making the site look beautiful. Way to go Thomas.

On a side note. I find myself not being able to let go of a dear departed friend’s death. I guess its some type of inner guilt. I can’t find myself to delete her name off my msn list. I don’t know whats wrong with me. Maybe its a way for me to remember my memories of her. Maybe So i won’t be able to forget her. I managed to delete her off my cellphone but i don’t know why i can’t on msn. One of these days i will muster up the courage for it. Maybe its a guild for not noticing for 5 years. Something to think about.

Hrm updates updates… I’m content with life right now. I still want to go back to school and find a career. I’m very happy with my boyfriend right now. Sister is near her first month of her two month trip to Europe. I have a even larger urge to travel. I’m a bit bored with my job. Not playing any MMORPGs. I won’t make any promises but will attempt to slowly update.

Looking out the window in a rainy afternoon, it makes me remember a dream i once had recently. Where suddenly I’m in the middle of a tropical ocean and i realize that i’m drowning. I scream for help. No answers. As my head slowly submerges in water and my screams become bubbles of water. I realize something. That noone around me anymore to rescue this girl. That if i wanted to live i would have to depend on myself. I would have to have the courage to move forward. I don’t remember if i managed to save myself or not. But sometimes it feels like i’m still in that dream and still trying to make the decision underwater.

I need a hero to save me. I guess i can’t depend on myself just yet.